我期待一種冒險

繪◎王點點

"I'm practicing French now. I want to move to Europe so I can force myself to start over①. I have a nine-to-six job. It's a good position. They pay me well. I love my team.But everything just feels so familiar. There's no discomfort or uncertainty anymore. On weekends I go to the same neighborhood bar. I eat at the same restaurants that I know are good. I take interesting vacations, but even those tend to follow a regular pattern. As much as I tell myself that I'm being adventurous②when I hike in Peru—it's a very planned risk. I think a new city will be good for me. I'll start out alone. I'll be forced to re fl ect. I'll have a sense of unexpectedness③. I want to feel like a tourist in my own life again.

我正在練習法語。我想搬到歐洲去，這樣就可以迫使自己重新開始。我有一份朝九晚六的工作，職位很好，待遇也不錯。我愛我的團隊，但感覺一切都太過熟悉了，沒了任何不適或不確定的因素。周末我會去附近的同一個酒吧，在同樣的、我認為不錯的餐館吃飯。我也會享受有趣的假期，但即便是假期，我也覺得都是循規蹈矩。盡管在秘魯旅行時我告訴自己我在冒險——那卻依然是一場很有計劃的冒險。我覺得去一個新的城市對我來說會好一些，我會獨自出發，會被迫思考，會有一種出乎意料的感覺。我希望在自己的生命中再次體會到游客的感覺。

① start over 重新開始

② adventurous 英 [?d'vent?(?)r?s] 美 [?d'v?nt??r?s]adj. 愛冒險的；大膽的；充滿危險的

③ unexpectedness [,?n?k'sp?kt?dn?s] n. 出乎意料，突然